1. I am a self-trained vocalist. NO, you do not use your vocal chords to sing. If you do will damage your voice over time. You use subharmonic techniques, and the body parts you use to sing are your diaphragm, soft palette, fry register amongst other complex muscles in your throat and chest. Singing without knowledge on how to do so can be damaging, please consult someone who knows how to sing before learning.
2. I play the guitar good sometimes okay; I've only been playing for a year so I'm kind of bad.
3. My sense of humor changes often, but now I make jokes about my injuries, myself, drugs and the company BD.
4. You probably don't need to or want to know what BD is.
5. I like speedcore, black metal, metalcore, indie folk, indie, crust folk, folk music, folk metal, hardcore rock, post-black metal; basically, any music that is historical like folk, and any extreme electronic or metal genre I enjoy. I also like ambient, preferably dark ambient.
6. I have bicuspid aortic valve disorder.
7. One of my favorite songs is about a device used to keep people with detrimental heart conditions in pace, called, "PACEMAKER REV. 2.0" by the Quick Brown Fox.
8. I like snakes.
9. I'm eighteen.
10. I was diagnosed with ADHD, depression, anxiety as a child; however, I exhibit no symptoms of them now.
11. I have a high pain tolerance and enjoy certain stressful situations. One of my childhood dreams was to teleport in a world like Silent Hill, or other psychological horror series.
12. As a child, I suffered severe Aspergers, a form of autism that I have since outgrown. Very rarely any of it still remains.
13. I study theology, meaning religion. I prefer to study private religions, fringe religions, and spirituality, along with certain ancient religious practices.
14. I love meditating to dark ambient music.
15. I desire to own land and build a homestead in the future.
16. Through meditation, I have the ability to induce a deep state of consciousness in which I lose partial contact with my bodily functions; however, thanks to my medulla my brain and heart still work. If I were to go any deeper into meditation I would become dissociated with reality - something I wish to achieve - and it would generate a heavy amount of hallucinations. This is a goal of mine.
17. I have centered my future career around nature, as I believe that nature is inherently, scientifically, spiritually and literally above humanity in all ways.
18. There are few people that I care enough about to defend them with my life; these people are rare and you will never see them.
19. I have an honor code, I take it very seriously. I tells me how to act, what to do and not to do, and enforces aspects of my life. Since I have still a small remaining bit of ADHD in me, it allows me to keep my behavior stable.
20. My ideal form of government is primitivist entarchy; however, this would send us back to the stone ages so I let it pass.
21. I recently got into a skateboarding accident, which explains the bruises and scratches on my face.
22. I cannot tell people who I am.
23. I have an affection towards low-technology solutions in a high-tech world.
24. I'm a traditionalist; I'd rather read a physical book than a pdf.
25. I study mind-altering alkaloids and how they affect the human mind.
26. I do not feel comfortable when people know stuff about me, so is it okay if I delete this once it gets graded?
27. I have a soft spot for Out of Placers and archaic literature.
28. Because of my current injuries, I am in much pain!
29. In the future, I will reduce my technological use to the bare minimum.
30. I'm a minimalist. Minimalism is a lifestyle.
31. One of my favorite dark ambient artist right now is Flowers for Bodysnatchers. You can really feel the emotional aspects of the stories he tells with the sound he designs; it's really dark and depressing.
32. I'm a skateboarder. It's a dangerous sport and I don't recommend it at all. Please don't do it, as it hurts bad once you get in an accident. I got in one on Sunday, ripped my jeans and I have scars and wounds all over my body. I had to take off all my clothes and it took near an hour getting everything, "Fixed," up. My face, which took the most damage, was spurting bright red coagulated blood all over my bared, torn feet. I have a high pain tolerance than most people but I still do not recommend it. I have an adnormal ability to remain calm in a situation involving blood, gore, and injuries; even if the blood, gore and wounds are on myself. I guess that's what years of listening to terrible dark music and playing horror games does to yah; I'd be a good forensic crime-scene photographer as I wouldn't vomit on the dead corpses! Cool! Maybe that can be a last resort job for me! (Hopefully, I can use some pictures in my grotesque art projects.)
33. I'm weird and I'm into weird things; people my age don't like me for this, but older people do.
34. I'm polite, mostly toward older people as I have learned to respect our elders; only if they are open-minded, of course.
35. I'm usually a soft-spoken person, that takes many things seriously unless I have an overwhelming sense of happiness.
36. People say I'm intelligent; I can see why.
37. During the year of 2015, I exhibited psychotic-like symptoms, despite not having clinical psychosis.
38. For three years of my life I was subject to prescription drugs, I no longer take any and made a formal oath of only taking of few forms of therapy in the case of mental illness or other things. If a doctor forces to me undergo a form of treatment without my formal consent, I will retaliate. It won't be pretty.
39. I used to listen to grindcore music.
40. I only fear sleep paralysis, but I hope to have these problems in the future as I have had them in the past. They are terrifying, but I like it.
41. If I am in a severe state of depression, my mind will exhibit sleep paralysis symptoms but in waking reality; meaning, I may have short hallucinations of black silhouettes. I named the first one I saw my Shadow-self. No, I do not have any severe mental disorders. It is just the human brain is capable of more than we know. Meditation (see number 16), can heighten more primitive areas of the human mind. It is not as common as I make it out to sound. This is not a symptom of number 37.
42. No matter what happens to me, I'm always OK!
43. This is a lot of things about me.
44. I'm a very secretive person and do not want to tell everyone everything about me.
45. I prefer extreme sports over organized sports, like skate-boarding.
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