Thank You for the Great School-year and Class!

1) I've written a lot this year, but I still believe that I have a lot of room to improve. I've seen some of the writing that I can do, most of it isn't published on this blog, but it is something that I really enjoy. My brother complained to me saying that the writings I enjoy are too dark, but I enjoy that. I like the aesthetics of darkness and I have read philosophy developed around it and why it is important. I know that my new style of writing is very niche and not everyone will approve of it, or even like it. I know that, and I'm okay with that. I don't need people to tell my what is good and what isn't now, I can think for myself and I will tell you this: I enjoy and understand what I like.

Yes, my writings here may be more or less dark or light-hearted in nature, but I personally believe that to deny the darker sides of oneself is to shy away from the truth. You can't have a whole without two opposites, and that's what I want people to comprehend. I want them to confront themselves and their darker sides. We all have that inside them. If you were to ask what my darker side was, I'd just tell you that I have an inner aggression inside me. I'm intelligent, too; intelligence and anger, when working together create something bad. However, ever since I was twelve I've learned to control myself more and I have become more indifferent towards hate and things that go against me. When people call me names now, I just don't react. It just does not matter to me.

Maybe I'm just indifferent towards this, or maybe confronting my more darker sides has really helped me. Over time, I learned to accept it and see the beauty in depression and anger. I don't project my emotions onto myself anymore, I give them a voice in my words and in my art; and I have found happiness in that. The end result is beautiful, I really love it. Ever since I became estranged and lovelorn from a girl that I knew for four years, I've been different as I am really on my own now. I had to learn to confront life without her, and I'm doing really good because of that. I miss her, sure; but we are two different people on two different paths. She taught me self-discipline, and if you've ever seen me confront a person who is harming me or another you'd say that I was just like her when she was confronting other people who did the same. Well, besides the fire. She tried to light me on fire for not knowing her age once; heh, so much for self-discipline. Yeah, she was calm but very passionate in her emotions. Don't worry, though! I don't have any plans on light people on fire!

2) I won first place in LAD writing competition. I think that's a great reward; however, I see it more as a sign that I should actually put my writing talent to real use. So I've been working on a chapbook that will be a compilation of my writing. Wait, not really, no. It's a story presented in a poem that I've been working on. Anyway, back to the original question. I've written a lot, and albeit the piece I thought would win didn't it taught me the importance of my narrative ability that I've acquired from the four years I wrote about my life with the girl I mentioned above. I threw out all the papers over the summer out of shame, and that's something I regret. I still can't really stand reading them, but now I never can see them again. That makes it sadder. I'm not sure though, I have a vision for what I want my writing to be and I'm working toward that, but the writing I've done here seems to me to be what I've always done. It's just my voice.

3) During the construction of this blog, I was actually in a Web Design class. My final project was a book on European witch beliefs and practices. My goal was really to make something that had a good contrasting color, and though I didn't really do that here, I tried my best to accomplish it on there. I posted pictures of it online, on Facebook.

4) I like to do political journaling on why certain laws are just not good. Most of my journaling is just me writing about my dreams and my day.

5) I'm going to copy and paste something from my personal journal into this area.

6) As I mentioned, I want to work on a small chapbook and to publish it. I also have some music projects that I desire to publish online.

7) I'm honestly blown away from a lot of the stuff in Think. Magazine, we have some creative writers here in this class and I think that this is really cool. I hope that everyone uses their talent for themselves in their future endeavors.